Where Am I today?

Where am I? Wow, this is the first time in my life that I am excited to express my present state of being. What a wonderful feeling! Right now, I am in a place where I have experienced inner peace for the first time. I have always had a lot going on in my life, in constant survival mode. Now that I am experiencing peace, I don’t know what to do with myself! I describe my lack of anxiety like someone trying to be live on tv for the first time, and they don’t know what to do with their hands.

What is interesting though, is I find my mind searching for reasons to be anxious. My body does not know how to be “un-anxious.” Now, I am left with a choice: Do I give in to this anxiety, fulfilling this familiar, uncomfortable feeling? Or do I choose to accept that my mind and body are doing this to protect itself, kindly address it, then push it away?

For the most part, I am choosing the latter. I conclude that I am sick of being anxious, and sick of surviving. Although it is always difficult to grow and progress, I am choosing to kindly acknowledge these thoughts, and push them to the side. I am going to distract myself with things that lead me to progression, and I am going to continue to grow! Why, because I fucking deserve it. And so do you!

-Peace and Love!